Friday, November 9, 2012

November

Well, the weather has certainly turned here in MN.  It is looking like winter more and more.  I wish the gray clouds that cover us most days felt comfy like a blanket, but to me they don't bring comfort, rather a heaviness.  I wish it weren't that way, but it is.  Medicine is good this time of year for those who suffer seasonal depression!

I was just asked recently how our journey to Japan is going so here's the update.

We are still aiming for our paperwork deadline of January.  I've tried to get a start on it now so when the holidays come I will not have to rush to get everything done.  It's an interesting process putting your life down on paper!

Ever since we were re-directed to Japan, I've had a difficult time figuring out what God would want us to do once we get there.  Not that I have to have it all figured out now, but I've been asking God..."So, what does ministry in Japan look like for our family?"  Until this past weekend God was pretty silent.  I had plenty of ideas of what I could do in China, but those ideas don't really mesh with Japan.  So, I've just been praying and waiting for God to give me an answer.

True to His nature, He did answer my prayer and I have to admit it's much more simple than I would have thought.  Lots of people who know me will laugh out loud at this next section, but this was truly my thought process!

So, ever since I was 5 I knew I wanted to be a teacher (and a mom).  Never once did I consider anything else as I was growing up.  Many told me "every girl wants to be a teacher (or nurse, etc.), you'll likely change your mind."  But, I never did.  I just always had this single vision when it came to what I'd do.  Almost every job I have had revolves around children in one aspect or another.

15 years ago Greg and I helped to plant our church.  It was such an exciting time and one I will treasure.  It was tough and required a lot of time, but one of the most rewarding things God has used me for.  Basically, my way of serving the church was to help organize and start our children's ministry.  To this day, I've been involved in children's both in volunteer and paid positions. 

I've dabbled in other ministry areas so I didn't want to have the expectation that God was calling me to work with kids in Japan.  I mean, it makes sense to me, but I get in trouble when I assume... both with God and my husband!  ;-)  So, that brings us up to me praying for God to give me a vision for our ministry in Japan.

Last Sunday, Greg and I were talking in the kitchen before heading out to serve at church... me with the kids and him in the drama for the first time in a while.  We were talking about some type of spiritual issue, but not Japan specifically.  All of a sudden, in the midst of our discussion God tapped me on the shoulder (so to speak) and let me know His intention.  It was kind of like when your child interrupts a conversation and you have to totally switch gears to hear him/her.... (not saying God is a child interrupting me, but well, you know what I mean if you're a mom!)  So, pretty much God let me know He wants me doing the same thing I did 15 years ago for Crosswinds.  Be involved in church planting and organizing children's programs.  So simple!  It was a wonderful peace that settled over me after that moment.  God had answered my many months of prayer and I'm now quite excited for what that means.

The even better part was I sent a note to our dear friends in Japan (who we're hoping to be on a team with) and they just attended a Church planting bootcamp.  My friend said that at her table there was a discussion on how they need more people dedicated to the children!  And, this was also met with encouragement from another team member.  It is such an amazing feeling to know God's hand is all over our whole journey.  That thousands of miles away He is orchestrating events and opening hearts to His will, just as He is doing the same for me.  We serve an amazing God!

Getting back to practical things... we have realtors coming this week to help us prioritize our household projects before we put the house on the market. 

I'm also excited to participate in a webcast on making disciples tonight.  Seems perfect material to be learning before our journey.  A prayer request given to me by our friends is for discipleship to grow in Japan.  For people, such as us, entering Japan, but moreso for Japanese believers to step into discipleship roles. 

Thanks for following our ongoing adventure!   As we enter this season of Thanksgiving and Christmas there are so many things I am thankful for.  Our family is most certainly blessed.  We hope we are a blessing to others.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Progress?

Lots of you have asked about our progress toward Japan, so I figured it's time for an update!  If you don't know us well, you will soon find out we don't move fast!  Well, I should say, God has not moved fast with us in this endeavor (if you're aware of our meeting/engagement/marriage story it contradicts the moving fast thing!).  He is taking His own sweet time, but behind the scenes much is going on.

Greg and I are pretty transparent with our friends that our marriage has been a constant challenge for us. I would say it has been more difficult than parenting four kids (not sure if Greg agrees or not?).  We are currently watching clips from a message series Andy Stanley did on marriage with our small group.  It is titled: imarriage.  We figured out we have an "imarriage".  Two big I's trying to make a we.  It's been a constant struggle.  But, in the past month we can both confidently say, by God's grace we are making good strides.  We crossed another threshold and it feels very good.  We have both come to new understandings about ourselves and each other.  We both desire our marriage to reflect Christ.  We are so far from that, but we long to be closer to that goal.  God is slowly (we're both slow learners) moving us in that direction.

So, are we any closer geographically to Japan... no.   But, we are much closer to a healthy marriage that will withstand the pressure of this life change we will experience.  It's interesting for me to look back over the past several years.  Since we first heard "China", God has brought me closer to Him than I've ever been (unfortunately many times it involved cutting me off at the knees, my fault, not His!) and in that same process of drawing me into Himself, He's drawing me closer into my husband's arms as well.  It's a struggle for an independent German (read stubborn) girl to depend on God or her husband.  It's a struggle to give up the way I know (think) it should be and surrender to God or my husband.  It's a struggle to give up ideas of how I think God should act or what He should be doing for me/us.  But through this struggle I have learned that my ways are not God's ways.  Thank God!  My stubborness is being chipped away, little by little and little by little I'm learning what it means to submit to my Lord as well as my husband.  The lessons have been painful, but God's grace is sufficient and my prayer is His glory will be shown by our marriage testimony.  God takes what Satan means for destruction and turns it into a beacon of His glory.  How grateful I am for God loving Greg and I so much that He does not give up on us.  Believe me, we've both done things that are worth giving up on us for!

So, we venture on.  Things are by no means perfect, but we are making good progress.  Even if we would never make it to Japan, all that God has brought us through in our relationship has been worth it.  I wouldn't trade the troubles now that I can begin to see the reward.  That reward is eternal... I will never have to give it up!

We've decided to try to make the January deadline for all our paperwork.  Oct. just wasn't the right time.  It really had nothing to do with the paperwork and everything to do with my paragraphs above.  We're continuing to declutter the house (long process!) and are still aiming for putting it on the market in the spring.  As far as traveling to Japan... we're not sure when, but we'll keep you updated.  Hopefully sometime next year is what we're hoping.

I tend to get ahead of God most of the time, but I've been thinking about what we might do in Japan.  I really have NO idea.  I had an idea of what I would have liked to do in China, but not Japan.  I'm sure that's a surprise only God knows right now.  I told one of my closest friends today that thinking about going to Japan is like thinking about going to Heaven.  I have absolutely NO idea what it will be like or what it could be like.  I have NO picture of us there or what we would do.  I'm guessing that's right where God wants me.  My plans are not His plans and my thoughts are not His thoughts.  Good thing.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Knowing More? Or Less?

Most things become smaller the more you learn about them. 

I was into photography for awhile.  Still enjoy it, but not a lot of time for it in this season.  The more I studied and learned about the art of photography (and photo editing) the more I understood and could grasp an understanding of light and how to work with it.  Now, I'm no expert, for sure, but the world of photography is not so much a mystery to me any more.

I tend to be a person who likes to conquer things.  I like to have a challenge in front of me, research it, figure it out and move on.  There are a lot of things in life we can do this with.

However, God isn't one of them.  I'm grateful for that!  I've been doing some pretty intense studying that God is using to help me really solidfiy my grounding in Him.  I have this burning feeling that I just need to know God more.  The interesting thing about knowing God more though is that the more you know, the bigger God seems and the more you realize there is to know about Him.  What else in this world is there that the more we know the more we actually don't?  Crazy.  No wonder people think we're weird!  ;-)

As we begin to clean out our house... (I guess decluttering is the PC term for it, but really... it's like taking a bulldozer and having at it right now!) I have an eager sense of anticipation for what lies ahead for us.  We don't know for sure when Japan will be a reality, but most likely within the next year moving to a smaller house here in Rochester will be a reality.  It's almost a game I'm playing in my mind... how little do we REALLY need?   Also very weird.

We're told by those who "know" that we can expect to only have about a quarter of the space our home currently has here once we move to Japan.  That's about 700 sq. feet.  Wow.  And it will cost much more!  Our goal over the next few months is to downsize A LOT!  The neat thing is our kids are getting involved.  Both the older two have attacked their rooms with their own bulldozers and they are making really good progress on unloading.  They are giving a lot away.  Our oldest is looking for things to sell so he can save money for a new laptop.  We're trying to slowly get portable.  Now, don't ask about the younger two... after a good effort Rylan has pooped out, Bryson never got his bulldozer started so the "Mommy-dozer" will be heading in this week to start shoveling out!

God amazed us this week by providing yet another family willing to support us financially... and we're still not even ready for that!  Greg ran into a dear young woman who grew up in our church and has since moved away and gotten married.  He spoke to her of our plans and right away she gave him her contact information and told him she and her husband would like to support us.  Crazy!  Our God is more than amazing! 

I found this interesting quote to give you some brain food.... it's from AW Tozer... one of my new favorite teachers (well, new for me... he's not new... he died in '63!)

"What comes into our minds when we think about God is the most important thing about us."

Chew on that one awhile... I am!

Prayer Request:  This isn't actually for us, but for our friends who are currently missionaries in Japan.  Praise that God has given them the start of a vision for a new ministry for them.  They have been looking for direction for some time, waiting patiently for God's leading.  Also, they need at least 30-35% more in monthly support (or one time gifts) to continue ministering in Japan.  Please join me in prayer that God, who provides for all of our needs would raise up faithful people to support their mission to the Japanese people.  Pray for an outpouring of generosity from people they don't even know.  That those who know them would see God's glorious provision through the way He provides for His people.

We are looking to God to let us know when is the best time for us to visit Japan.  We are thinking this could happen within the next year, but we're not clear as to when.  Please pray for clear direction in this matter!  There are some things going on in Japan in Nov. that we think would make it a great time to go, but we haven't received a confirmation on that yet.

"His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness."  2 Peter 1:3

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Moving on along....

"I don't want my life to be explainable without the Holy Spirit.  I want people to look at my life and know that I couldn't be doing this by my own power.  I want to live in such a way that I am desperate for Him to come through.  That if He doesn't come through, I am screwed."

--Francis Chan
Forgotten God

This is my favorite quote from a book recently lent to me by a friend of mine.  Ironically, as a college student, she is in a similar position in her life that us "old people" are right now in our early 40's!  If you haven't read Forgotten God, put it on your list.  I promise you won't be the same after reading it.

So, "unexplainable" has become the theme of our lives lately.  Just last night Greg was trying to explain to someone WHY we are doing this.  "Because God told us to" is our only answer.  Some people are trying to make sense of it.  We tried that.  Hasn't worked for us... let us know if you come up with anything!

The best part of "unexplainable" is we don't have to rationalize anything.  We don't have to justify anything.  We don't have to um... well, explain anything.  God is busy doing His thing.  We are busy obeying.  That's all there is to it.

So, I needed to keep this quote in mind as we told our children this past weekend that Greg and I decided we need to sell the house.  I had an encounter with God during my quiet time on Thursday morning and felt the deep need to sell the house and move somewhere more affordable until we leave for the most expensive place to live in the world!  Heh... only God!  Greg and I talked and we both agreed this is what we need to do.

So, we sat the kiddos down Sunday night and explained to them we are going to start decluttering (basically getting rid of everything we don't really need) and preparing the house to put on the market most likely late winter/early spring.

I don't know how I expected the kids to react, but 3 out of the 4 cried and the 4th one succumbed to tears the following day.  This one was a tough one for them.  First, they need to give up a lot of their stuff.  Stuff is important to kids.  We're trying to help them see God doesn't want us to worship our stuff... I think we started out with a bang on that lesson...

Second, Jayden was 3 when we moved here.  That means basically all 4 kids only remember this house.  (Jayden has select memories of our other house, which mainly consist of being afraid at night in the basement where his room was.. which is one of the reasons we moved!)

It's interesting, as a mom, to see my kids start to operate independent of me.  I realize our oldest is almost 12, but this is really just hitting me now.  When they are babies and young children, they seemed to just echo their dad and I.  If we were angry about something, they would be angry.  If we were happy, they were happy.  If we were sad, they were sad.  However now, they are individuals.  They have their own feelings and reactions.  I'm feeling the need more and more to trust God with them.  There is so much I can't do for them that they need a sovereign God for. 

I want them to learn as we do "unexplainable" things (most parents want to give their kids MORE, not LESS... bummer they got stuck with us!  ;-) for God... that He will come through for us.  He will be our ONLY explanation so that others may know Him.  In our case, there's 124,000,000 (give or take a million) Japanese people who need to know Him.  He needs to be our only explanation.

Being more sentimental about "stuff", Greg is leaning more toward the kids side.  I think I'm the lone ranger in my feelings.  I've never been real attached to stuff.  I don't know why... just not my thing.  I am a thrower, not a saver.  Photos are important to me, but thankfully those are very portable now that everything is digital!  Yes, our house has a lot of great memories, but the people that made those memories here are coming with me, so I really don't feel a lot of loss.  (Disclaimer:  Friends/extended family not included in that... that's a whole other issue for another day.  However, if you feel the calling to Japan..... :) 

Maybe I will feel different the more "real" it gets, but maybe not.... if this is what God wants us to do, who am I to question?  That's the great thing about unexplainable.  Why are you selling a big beautiful house and renting something small and not as nice?  "Because God told us to."  Unexplainable without the Holy Spirit.


May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.

Romans 15:13

Sunday, July 8, 2012

GodSPEED?


So, I was thinking about the word "Godspeed".  People sometimes say this to others who are embarking on a journey or a large task.  I really wonder though where the "speed" part comes from!  (I did look it up and the verb "speed" here has nothing to do with 'quickness', but is used in the archaic sense of the word - "succeed, attain one's goal, desire")  God has not proven himself "speedy" in much of anything in our lives!  Maybe because I'm quick enough for the both of us! ;-)


If there's one thing I've learned in the past 3.5 years, it's that God does not move fast.  There are times when things seem to speed up a bit, but most of the time he moves like a turtle.  Or maybe even a snail.  I, on the other hand, am a rabbit or maybe a gazelle.  I like to go fast.  I like fast roller coasters, I like to drive fast, I liked to go fast down the alpine slide in Taylor's Falls last weekend. I like to think fast and talk fast.  Fast is good, slow is... well.... s l o w.
There's a lot of waiting in the Bible.... almost everyone I can think of had to wait on God. Abraham (for a son), Joseph (to be reunited with his family), Israelites (many times, but 400 years as slaves in Egypt probably takes the cake, closely followed by 40 years in the desert), Jonah (in a fish for 3 days), David (never did get to build the temple), even though it was a parable the father waited for his prodigal son to return, the Good Samaritan helped a man waiting in the road for help... and thankfully Jesus waits to return until as many people as possible yield their life to Him. I guess if nothing else, I'm in good company!

I think one of the hardest things God has asked me to do in this whole process is wait. Of course, waiting doesn't mean not doing anything, but waiting often entails not doing what **I** want to be doing. It means keeping my ears and eyes open for what God wants me to be doing today. It means slowing down to at least a turtle speed (I think moving at a snail's pace would actually kill me!)... letting the rabbit go ahead without me. It means not missing what God is teaching me today because I'm too focused on the future.


but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;
    they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
    they shall walk and not faint.

Isaiah 40:31 ESV

I like the ESV version of this verse.  NIV says, "but those who hope in the Lord..."  I rather like the word "wait".  When I wait for the Lord (instead of plowing ahead doing my own thing),  people are able to see Jesus instead of me.  That's a really good thing!  ;-) 



Saturday, June 23, 2012

First Supporters!

I love it when God works through others to bless His people.  Sometimes we are the blessee and other times we are the recipients of that blessing.  For some people it's more difficult to be the recipient than it is to be the vessel.

Greg and I have decided that we are going to approach financial support for this whole endeavor by trusting in God to provide what we need at each juncture.  Our efforts will focus on praying in support and not soliciting.  Not that we won't do what need to do to make people aware of our needs, but we are going to let the Holy Spirit work to move people to give. 

Our first financial goal is to raise money to be able to visit Japan in Oct.  We are looking to God to be faithful to provide. 

I had an interesting interaction with a dear sister in Christ.  I offered her something that she needs to pursue what I would call a career, but she may consider a hobby... (she's that good!) and asked that she not pay me, but consider contributing to our "Watts to Japan in Oct. fund".  Amazingly she responded that her family would rather not give a lump sum, but give on a monthly basis.  I giggled when she asked if we are prepared to accept that and thought... gee, we haven't even gotten there yet!

God is so faithful He is already preparing people's hearts to contribute the work He wants to do through our family.  I'm very thankful to these dear family friends... they are most certainly a family always desiring to do the best for their Lord.  Just having them pray for us will be exciting!  I have heard story upon story from this dear family of how God has always provided for them when they need or even want something.  They are faithful to ask, God is faithful to provide.

And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. 15 And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him.   1 John 5:14-15

Application process

I remember talking to a friend from college whose family are career missionaries.  They've been in the ministry for over 10 years.  We were talking a bit about the process to become a missionary and she joked with me that she doesn't know if they would be accepted now days because the process of selection has become more involved.  I don't know if I agree with her on that, but I do agree the process is a bit overwhelming!

We have two applications sitting in front of us on the computer for two different agencies.  They are both very involved!  It's not the type of thing you can just sit down and whiz through.  There is a lot of info. they want to know and many "essay" type questions.  All is necessary, but it's a good thing the deadline for one of these applications is not until October!

Not only do we have a lot of paperwork to complete, one of the organizations we're considering wants us to visit Japan as a family before they will interview us.  We agree this would be a good idea as we have never traveled internationally as a family.  None of us have been over-seas either!  So, our next step is to trust God for the finances to be able to afford to travel to Japan.

It would be wonderful if we could make this trip the latter half of October.  A team we potentially could work with will be meeting to set a new direction in Oct.  It would be very exciting to be there when they come together to plan their next steps.  We have a possibility of somewhere to stay thanks to our friends in Japan.  That would be very helpful!  We are now looking to God to provide our transportation over there.  (Mounting on eagle's wings sounds very exciting and cheap right now!  Anybody raise eagles?)  I am confident that if God wants us there in Oct. it is nothing for Him to provide what we need.  Our friends are already busy researching some projects we could be involved in.

In the meantime, we continue to trust for God's provision!

Phil. 4:19   And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.